It seems like my entire life I’ve taken the Long way around.
Well ok, let me fix that, my entire adult life I’ve taken the long way around. I went to University like I was supposed to, but in the end, it took me 10 years almost to finish my degree. I just had to take the long road that led me through hardship, pain, and misery in order to get to the place that I could finish that degree. I had to try life out first, to see the world as I wanted it to be, and to find out that it really wasn’t, in order to appreciate just how much I wanted that degree, needed the degree.
Even in love, I’ve taken the long route. I went out with just about every single guy that ever showed interest in me. From one night flings before homecoming to seven years long. All of that to just get me to this point in my life, and my mind, where I can accept the love of a man who has nearly everything I’d ever day dreamed about, but never believed I could have. It took me years, so many many years, to accept not only the love of another person at face value, but also realize that lust is not love, and that I am deserving of love. It took me a long time to get to those lessons, and to accept and understand them, but I did, and I do.
And today, another example of me taking the long way around. I had to head down to the store to pick up some medicine for the house, and to get some soap for our trip this weekend. Now the walk to the store isn’t very long at all, in fact it’s only about .5km. So just about a mile. Up hills and stuff. But today I decided that I wanted to do a bit more. So, I took the long way around. What could have been an easy 1km round trip turned into a 3.25km walk. With hills and flats and everything in between. All because I made the conscious decision to take the long way around. And for once in my life, it was a positive thing!
Even my health has been the long way around. I’m 30, and only just now starting to realize, and care, that there is so much more life ahead of me, I shouldn’t be throwing it away on being fat, having a bad diet, no physical activity, and smoking. Granted, I quit smoking almost 2 years ago now, but the rest of that stuff, it took me finding love, and hitting 30 to realize that I have so much more to do. Again, the long way around.
Even in my writing! I have a fantasy world in my head and have had it there for going on six years now, and I start to work on it bit by bit by bit every November, chipping away at just a little bit more of the information, the facade, the details, and never actually getting to the story that I want to tell! I have to figure out the background first, the characters, and all the details in between before I can even put the story down on paper. Another Long Way Around.
But, I am who I am. And if Slow and Steady is how I need to work in my life in order to achieve the happiness that I’m at, then Slow and Steady is where I will be. And who I will be. Because after all this time of wandering the Long Way Around, I’ve found where I’m supposed to be.